Must. Kick. Ass. Into. Gear.
I was just alerted that I know have 17 subscribers. I uh.. thanks? I wasn’t aware I was that interesting to keep track of. :)
I’m not entirely sure what to say about my life right now. I started college three weeks ago, and I’m enrolled in a librarian technician course. So, that’s pretty cool. Things are mostly going well, although I find assignments stressful (like this most recent batch) because I’m unsure of what to do and I want to get it completely perfectly right and that is very stressful okay.
Spiritually.. I don’t even know. I’ve spent the last month or so doing a lot of heavy family tree research, which more or less led me to embrace my Métis heritage more strongly, and also becoming more involved in Indigenous activism. As well as feminism and queer activism, to boot. I’ve started to more strongly realize that doing ritual in front of an altar isn’t my thing. Any pull I feel to do it is just to simply fit in with the rest of the pagan people I know. Perhaps it is laziness, and I consider that a possibility, but I think deep down my worship was always meant to be more practical (this isn’t meant to be an insult to those who do altar/shrine worship, so please don’t take it as such?) and alter (heh) my actions accordingly. Maybe this will change in the coming months with the Cailleach returning, because I do want to set up something to Her, but that’s about it.
The only thing standing in my way to accomplishing all of this is to actually get out there and do shit. :P
That’s.. hm.. about it, I suppose? I feel like I’m a lot more emotionally stable than I was several months ago. Although my emotions are still whacked out from time to time. :) But nothing major.
I hope everyone else is doing well! :D
Yes, technically life it about ‘doing shit’. ;)
I understand, it’s so easy to get caught up in the theory.
Oh and btw. I am usually in utter shock, if more than two people read my blog in one day. ;) So yay for 17 subscribers! =)
Hehe. I know. ;)
And thanks! I’m still sort of in shock. Why am I so interesting?!
I thought I was the only person who difficulty with altar-related worship. Yeah, it’s okay. You have a physical place to look at and focus on when you’re doing… whatever… but it’s just… a lot of work. And… I don’t know. I just never felt comfortable with it.
Congratulations on the 17 subscribers!
Not alone! Woo! :)
I think it might be because I do not like attention on me. For most of my life any attention on me has not been positive (and when it was I do the whole flushed omgthankyou sort of thing). Standing before the gods in front of an altar or shrine is *terrifying* to me.
I also think it might be because my brain just functions different than other people, too. ;) What works for say Sannion or Dver or Jenett doesn’t work for me all the way. If that makes sense.
Thanks! :D