They’ll take you places you didn’t want to go
While I was cleaning up my room, I found this quote written hastily on the back of an envelope for a book I had ordered two years ago:
They’ll take you places you didn’t want to go,
and see things you never wanted to see,
but be not afraid,
for they are there with you,
for everything.
I honestly have no idea why I wrote it down, or who originally said it, but it comes to me at a pretty poignant time right now.
I feel like I’m seeing, feeling, going, and knowing things right now I never wanted to even be near (and in some cases, again); heartbreak will do that to you. I don’t feel that a particular “they” led me here (and who knows? I could be wrong.), but at the same time it gives me comfort to know I’m not alone, that beings are standing witness to my pain, and are still encouraging me to live and experience and grow. All I want to do right now is curl up into a ball and cry, because everything reminds me of a person I can’t even contact right now, and that breaks me in ways I can’t even express. But at the same time I feel this compulsion to move forward, to try and build myself so I can withstand it and to not give up, and to use this almost as a lesson so that I’m better prepared for next time.
(Which doesn’t make it any easier really. It’s just comforting.)
I loved the quote! I’ve been feeling quite the same lately and I truly believe They are behind it. I had some health issues, then I was called to a job I never thought I would have because it was very different of everything I’m into, but I’m loving it! Sometimes I think ‘why did I study so much something to end up working in another thing?’, but it’s mostly an useless pride we humans have, and sometimes we can’t be stagnated in one group of skills. It attachs us to the past, to the things we studied, instead of learning new ways of dealing with life. Besides that, I have lost my soulmate for death 2 years ago (“everything reminds me of a person I can’t even contact right now”), so the feeling of needing to “live and experience and grow” has been quite strong to me too. However, you’re right, it’s not so easy. I hope we can be rewarded for having accepted the challenge…
Yeah, we really can’t stay in one place for long, can we? :/
Thanks for your comment. It is kind of a sobering effect on me, because while I can’t talk to him, at the very least he is still alive (although I have no idea if he is happy or not, I suspect not).
I hope so too…
Oh hon, I’m so, so sorry that you are going through this right now. If there’s anything at all that I can do, please don’t hesitate to let me know.
I do think, however, that your timely discovery of that quote was no accident.
Thanks Sannion. I may take you up on that offer (although I might not make much sense beyond “Whhhyyyyy” [when damn well knowing no one knows why]).
I pretty much agree. Especially since when I found it I kept getting the urge to go clean, and that’s how I found it. Hm.